I can’t take anymore.I am already feeling very small while comparing myself to the answers I am getting from the universe around me.The questions which were nurtured from my childhood starting from “Will the small toys playing cricket come falling out if I thrash the black and white Mitshubishi TV(actually Philips Picture Tube inside) , we used to own in Delhi ?” and till the question of “Why only Sex,if not War ?”.While the answers to all the questions I had till now are someway taking it’s place in the giant Jigsaw puzzle I am trying to solve , ever since , I started thinking “Why , was I sent to Earth ? ” i.e. when I was 8 or 9 years of age…..It’s not a surprise I am these days trying to answer my Manasatchi why I put a lot of groundnuts , when I used to be a ..”Girls ah …uuuaackuu” kind of boy ..even in the college days..Well it would be premature to arrive at any conclusion what life means to me and the whole humanity or any species for that matters, because , life is like a Hollywood movie,you will understand the real story only in the end.I don’t know how it feels like when you are at the death bed , but I am sure I would feel that I want to live the life again , just the kind of feeling you get after finishing Arundhathi Roy’s “God of Small things”.I will definitely write all my experiences in my Auto-Biography.You would probably have to wait for that some 30 years from now.But wait I hope I will be able to complete my current book titled ________ (top secret) in atleast 5 years from now.Actually speaking it should not take that long,but I am currently caught up in settling my life and the people around me …..and finding THE PERSON for the rest of my life. Though , I am already on my way to satisfy my self-realization needs , even before the some of the needs that occupy the middle of the Maslow’s needs pyramid are yet to be satisfied.
Life is like a Hollywood Movie
I still have a lot to achieve,unfortunately girls do not like boys with ambitions larger than life,but it’s okay.I have many scripts waiting to be made into films that can inspire the next generation,even more dreams (that I remember) that can be converted into scripts.I have one pseudo-scientific theory waiting to be proved ….Probably if my son(..why only son ??..why can’t it be my Daughter…may be because girls don’t think much and they don’t make a good scientist) becomes a scientist in his lifetime , I would definitely inspire him to pursue the research on deriving the equation for ESP(Extra-Sensory Perception)..If space travel becomes affordable within my life time and coincidentaly I become one of the few billionaires in the year 2035…I will definitely go on a vacation to Mars or Moon to have a look at the stars …more clearly…as I used to do during the summer vacations in my village Alakkudi.Currently , I am seriously into do something different that changes the world forever …. I hoped Web 2.0 is the answer for all my questions…but I am starting to realise that Web 2.0 is just a phenonmenon and is nothing when compared to some of the real questions that are beyond the human being’s capacity to imagine…like “What was there before the EMPTINESS of SPACE was created during the Big-Bang?” ………..”Are there parallel universes ?”……..”What will happen if the whole humanity reaches the saturation point where every person achieves the Self-Realisation needs quite easily …just like the Food , shelter needs have reached to an equilibrium (atleast in the Developed countries)…?”
“Will we become god after we reach a stage where the whole society becomes an Utopia?” …”even if we become Gods…what next….will we be spawning another worlds from scratch …just like our Gods created our worlds ?” …or “Is the whole creation , we live in is just a huge code, written by the programmer hired by God ?”…If my last thought was real ….”Is the thought about what the hell the universe is meant for ? is a bug in the code written by that programmer?”…..”Is my life , all about creating a DENT in the universe that makes you to run according to it’s own rules, right from the name you get , say Karthikeyan , is something which has been issued to me …like a Library card that issued to you when you join a new school…whether you make good use of that card or not?”
I bet very few of my blog readers will actually understand what I meant in the above blog..but those few who understood what I meant will definitely will have this question in mind…Why the Title is “If Evangelists were Gods..” – – – – – Probably you will understand only after reading my Auto-Biography which I will be writting 30 years from now..but if are really interested ..I really can’t help you..It just means ..whatever I am doing now is all part of the Code written by some cheap programmer hired by God …and the code works really well…it definitely is not like Windows.